10.22.2013
Scouts...
I was recently asked to work with the 8 year old scouts, the Bears, in my church. Scouts is something that I have never ever done before. To me, Scouts is just all the guys from church playing basketball together on Wednesday nights. We've only had a couple activities, or den meetings rather, but it's been good so far! Our first activity was paper mache...yikes. Our second was make model airplanes. It was interesting because the kits I got were super crappy (even though they were still like $10) but I think the boys had fun.
10.15.2013
On a lighter note...
Here are some cutie pictures of Franklin...who doesn't love seeing pictures of a cutie little puppy :)
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| Franklin loves hanging out with his...gosh what would they be...his Uncles I think. Puggy and Barney are Darons moms dogs...and they love playing together. But they sure get worn out!! Now to just convince Daron that he needs a doggy friend at our house!! |
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| He sleeps in the weirdest positions! |
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| He does this all the time! He can't seem to get his little tail and legs under the bed. We don't have a bed skirt anymore, so he can't hide as well. |
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| He constantly wants to be held. ALL THE TIME!! |
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| He gets to sleep in our bed sometimes...and he is a huge bed hog. |
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| He loves to be under the covers... |
Onto other happenings... Bryan hurt his knew back in the middle of August at football practice. And after battling insurance drama... he was finally able to get to the right doctor and get it taken care of. He had surgery on Oct 8th and he is doing really well!! He was able to walk on it a few hours after we got home! Poor kid was so nervous about his surgery...but who wouldn't be right?! He was a champ!
And last but not least...on Oct 7th, Daron and I celebrated our 3rd year anniversary! I just love this guy!!! He makes me so happy!
10.14.2013
I'm over it...
I am just so very over my life right now. I am hating everything.
I am really really over my job. I find work very frustrating to be at every day. I feel very pressured to ask for a raise and for some reason I just can't get myself to ask for one, even though I whole heatedly believe I deserve one. It's been over a year and a half since the other person that work in the office with me was fired, and I am still getting paid less per hour than she was, and I'm doing both of our jobs! My bosses do pay for all of my insurance (they usually pay half for the employee), but they other lady in the office was getting her 'bonuses' too; they paid for her cell phone and she got 'bonuses' for selling certain jobs, but my boss specifically told me I wasn't able to get that bonus like she was. (It was some sort of an agreement we had at one point, and now I can't remember what I was getting out of the deal). I am alone a lot because they go on vacation frequently, and I don't mind that at all, but I feel like I work hard to make sure everything is taken care of and all I really get is a "We are so glad you work for us. I hope you know you can never leave!"..... I feel pressured to find a 'real job', and that I am wasting a college degree and I could be making so much more money somewhere else.
I am constantly trying to talk myself out of wanting a baby. I try to pretend that I don't care that I probably don't get to have kids of my own. But every single time I open Facebook or Instagram, all I see are pictures of all of my friends and their cute families and their babies and their pregnant bellies, or any time Daron says "Well, it's different for you because Bryan isn't your kid" I literally want to scream. I know that Daron really doesn't want to have more kids, even though he has never said we can't and he has been very supportive in trying to make it happen. We both agreed we would try for a while but at a certain point, if it wasn't going to happen, that we wouldn't try to force it with any drastic measures. And I'm guessing, three years into trying, that it's just not meant to happen and at some point we will need to do something to make sure it doesn't happen.
I hate having no friends. I miss having friends close by. That doesn't mean there aren't people we like, cause there are plenty of fun people we go to church with, or used to go to church with, or that we just know, but everyone has their own lives and things that keep them busy. They have a houses full of kids. We don't. We have one anti-social teenager who sits in his room and plays video games all night long.
I hate being fat. I had gastric plication surgery in June and my stomach was sewn pretty much in half. I have only lost barely 60 pounds since then and it's very depressing. I feel like I should be losing a lot more. It was expensive surgery and I feel like I've wasted a lot of money to only loose 60 pounds in just about four months. I think I'm just destined to be an ugly fat person no matter what drastic things I do.
I love Christmas. I love every single thing about Christmas. Music, shopping, gift giving, Christmas stories, Christmas commercials, Christmas movies, decorations, lights...it just makes me feel happy inside. But Christmas in Arizona is not happy for me at all. No matter what I do I just don't feel Christmassy here. Buying gifts at Christmas time has been very hard for me. Daron is EXTREMELY hard to buy for and I find it very frustrating to get him something good. Especially since he is such a good gift giver, and always has nice things for me. All of the kids I buy gifts for are teenagers, and they just want money not gifts, which is no fun. Growing up, Christmas was two full weeks long. We played games and watched movies and ate cookies and yummy food and just hung out and had fun! Here Christmas is a half a day. And this year it will be just me and Daron on Christmas. I am 31 years old. I wanted to have a house full of kids and fun Christmas times, and save the 'just me and Daron Christmas days' to a little later on in life.
I hate that I get so unhappy sometimes. I don't want to be an unhappy person. I love Daron and Bryan and his other kids and his family and my family. There is nothing that anyone is doing wrong that makes me sad. It just seems to be a lot of things that come together and then I get sad. I have a horrible habit of comparing my life to everyone else's, and since everyone only puts the good things out for people to see, I compare my worst moments to their best. It's not fair to myself to do that, but it's what I do nevertheless.
8.03.2013
The Latest Happenings...
Sometimes I don't see the point in updating my blog cause I put pictures on Facebook and Instagram...but then I realize my mom doesn't see Instagram and that is where most of my pictures are...so I will update this with some recent pictures I've taken... Mostly of the 4th of July and then when Daron and I went up north that weekend. (Bryan didn't want to go...party pooper)
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| Johnny, Bryan and Charlie waiting for the AJ fireworks to start |
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| Lighting off our own fireworks after the main show |
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| My cute watermelon (got the idea from Pinterest of course) |
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| Daron looking out over the rim...he was VERY nervous at how close I was making him get to the edge (which wasn't close at all) |
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| I know I've posted pictures of our trips up north before...but I can't get over how beautiful it is up there! |
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| Daron and I on the rim! So beautiful! |
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| He was so scared in this shot...I desperately tried to get him to go out on that rock way to the right, but he wouldn't even consider it |
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| Franklin now sleeps in our bed...and he is quite the bed hog and he sleeps in the weirdest positions. |
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| He is a little stinker...but we sure love him! |
It's monsoon season here...so we've had some crazy rain storms...like the one in the video above.
When Daron and I went up north on July 5th, it rained like crazy most of the day we were suppossed to go to Hever-Overgards Fourth of July festivals. We still went and had fun...but it was rainy the whole time.
6.06.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 17...
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: What's an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life.
I'm blogging two days in a row!! Can you believe it?!? So I'm not sure how to take todays question. Is it something specific or just something general that you wish you could tell someone. I'm going to take it as a general thing, since there is a question involving more specifics later on.
I don't know if this is the exact way to answer the question, but I wish that I was just better at standing up for myself to people, and saying whatever needs to be said at that moment. It's not a huge problem, I mean I'm not being bullied or discriminated at work or anything, but just in little things. For example....I will almost NEVER complain about food at a restaurant (mostly because I just know they will spit/pee/contaminate my food.) Also I rarely say anything if someone cuts in front of me in line or asks me to do something that I just plain don't want to do. Daron says I'm the nicest person he's ever known, almost TOO nice. Sometimes I think it's too a fault though...cause I really never stand up for myself. We sort of balance each other out this way though, Daron and I. He help me to be more vocal about things, and I try to keep him calm when getting vocal about a problem really wouldn't be productive.
6.05.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 16...
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: What's an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life.
Wow...I am finally on the down hill slide of this 30 day challenge...it's only been an eternity since I started this. So, #16, what do people notice about you. Well....I think the most obvious answer is that I'm a gigantosaurus... I mean....disgustingly huge. The hugest I've ever been. But not for long. I'm kicking it in the butt this time.
5.16.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 15...
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: What's an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
There are a few rather obvious things that I dislike about my self...but I am going to go the less obvious route for this post. I hate making choices. HATE making choices. I hadn't noticed how bad this really was until last night. Daron and I were laying in bed and I said "Tell me 10 things you love about me" and he lists off a few, and then he says something like 'I love how indecisive you are. Whether it's where to go for dinner or what do you want to do for the rest of your life, it's a constant battle to get you to choose something. It's so funny.' ( I don't know that he really LOVES me for that, but he must find it endearing) So there it is...I wish I was better at making decisions.
3.26.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 14...
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
What do I like most about myself. This will be a short post. Kidding. But really, I feel like I am a pretty funny person. I'm reminded of a clip from Gilmore Girls where Loralie is talking to some guy and he says "You're funny. Did you used to be fat?" I know there are those rare gems who got looks and personality, but lots of the time it seems like it's one or the other. I feel like I was blessed with a really cool personality to make up for my lack of looks. Is that haughty of me to say?
3.19.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 13...
Day 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
Yes my heart has been broken; most recently when my horrid sister Tacy implied that my mom is the only one who reads my blog anymore. I'm sure there are one or two other people (Jillian and Nikki) who continue to follow my pathetic updates of a rather ordinary life. (Even though I hardly post anything that we've been doing lately. Maybe I'll change that soon and post some family updates). It does seem silly sometimes, blogging. I talk to someone in my family practically every day, so it's not like they are dying to read my updates on here. And anything that's unusual or funny or out of the ordinary I put on facebook. I've thought about deleting my facebook...letting everyone know about my blog and if they wanted to keep up with me they could. But, lets be honest, I have a facebook and keep up with it mostly to keep track of the crazies and to have something to gossip about with my real friends ;) I've gotten really bad at checking out every ones blogs too. Lots of people have stopped updating so much because of things like Instagram. I love instagram! It's so easy to show a quick fun picture of what's happening without having to upload it to the blog or facebook.
Anyway...
So, yes, I believe I've had my heart broken before. I look back and none of the situations mean anything to me now, but I don't think I should diminish those feelings just because I was younger. At the time I think my heart truly was broken. Naturally, it 'breaks my heart' to hear sad stories of kids who are in horrible situations, or puppies that get hurt, or school shootings and things like that. So, yes, my hearts been broken, but nothing I haven't been able to get over quickly.
3.11.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 12...
Day 12: If you could wish for
anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had
your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most
about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike
most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice
about you
Day 17: What's something you
wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire
the most
Day 19: What is your goal in
life
Day 20: What are the 10 most
significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow,
what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke
you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where
were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved
text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5
people without using their names
Day 26: What's something
you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel
guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do
you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup
collection
30: When were the happiest
days of your life
If I could wish for anything to come true, I would wish for a neighborhood. It would be a beautiful fall temperature outside for part of the year and the rest would be a beautiful sunny 75 degrees. And all of my friends and family would live there. We would have BBQ's every weekend. There would be a park in the middle of the neighboorhood where the kids played all the time. We would have craft days, movie days and game days. Yep...that's my wish.
3.08.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 11...
Day 11: Who can't you live without
Day 12: If you could wish for anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
My mother thinks she knows the answer to this next question. This is a hard one to put down to just one. There are lots of people I love very much and I am very very happy that I don't have to live without any of them...but there are just a few people I would have a super duper hard almost impossible time living without...
My Sisters...
My mom and dad...
and Daron :)
3.05.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 10...
Day 10: A dream for the future
Day 11: Who can't you live without
Day 12: If you could wish for anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
This is sort of like the last question. I guess...my dream for the future would be to be living comfortalby with Daron and whatever family we have and be happy and healthy and loving life! Simple as that...
2.26.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 9...
Day 9: Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 10: A dream for the future
Day 11: Who can't you live without
Day 12: If you could wish for anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
My hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days. Lately it seems like my plans are changing leterally by the day! A lot of it depends on how this surgery goes at the end of March. If there are any part of my ovaries left, I guess I would hope and plan for a baby! But, if he ends up chopping them all off...I'll have to figure something else out. We are working on elminateing a couple of bills over the next year, and hopefully, in a little over a year or so, maybe buying a house!
1.29.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 8...
Day 8: What's in your
purse
Day 9: Hopes, dreams and
plans for the next 365 days
Day 10: A dream for the
future
Day 11: Who can't you live
without
Day 12: If you could wish for
anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had
your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most
about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike
most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice
about you
Day 17: What's something you
wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire
the most
Day 19: What is your goal in
life
Day 20: What are the 10 most
significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow,
what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke
you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where
were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved
text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5
people without using their names
Day 26: What's something
you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel
guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one
and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup
collection
30: When were the happiest
days of your life
What's in your purse? I just cleaned out my purse so it's under control today. Normally I have a little bit of everything in there!
I've got my coupon book and some loose coupons, my car keys and my work keys, my bag of medicine, chapstick, hand santizier, tissues and stuff like that, both of my wallets, a brush, a pen, and my costco coupon book.
1.11.2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 7...
Day 7: Your worst habit
Day 8: What's in your purse
Day 9: Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 10: A dream for the future
Day 11: Who can't you live without
Day 12: If you could wish for anything to come true, what would you wish for
Day 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14: What do you like most about yourself
Day 15: What do you dislike most about yourself
Day 16: What do people notice about you
Day 17: What's something you wish you could say to someone
Day 18: Whom do you admire the most
Day 19: What is your goal in life
Day 20: What are the 10 most significant events in your life
Day 21: If you died tomorrow, what's one thing you'd regret not doing
Day 22: Whats an inside joke you have with someone
Day 23: Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing
Day 24: Do you have saved text messages? If so, from who and why
Day 25: Write 5 messages to 5 people without using their names
Day 26: What's something you're really excited for
Day 27: What do you feel guilty for doing
28: Tattoos, do you have one and what's it's story? If not, what do you want
29: Picture of your makeup collection
30: When were the happiest days of your life
My worst habit...could it be blogging? Cause I super suck at that right now. But of all my bad habits, probably my worst one is procrastanating. I put EVERYTHING off until the last possible minute, and I've been that was as long as I can remember. School work, church lessons, making appointments, work assignments...you name it.
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